Yosh, my birthday. My favourite day of the year. You know birthdays are supposed to be having celebration and happiness and blahblah, but for me, well, let's keep it quiet this time. Dont know why I'm not utterly enthusiastic about it and somehow it's freaking me the hell out.

12:00 - 02.00 am

Well, my first hour on today was an epic mellow. There was this midnite call that was supposed to be a birthday greetings but it was truly a mood-crasher. We had this little fight and I ended up shed tears. Damn. If I tell you the details, you must say "That's no biggie! hey, grow up."

06.00 am

It hit me. I was just a few minutes older and hell..got screwed by a single call. And so I stayed up late last night and woke up very early this morning with lack of expectation. I suddenly dont want any surprises just like it used to be happening. It was thrilling,though. Now I want to be alone. I'm just looking back through years I've lived and wondering whether I've done ENOUGH for the people around. It such a shame looking at people that have the same age as me. They have done so damn much for themselves and also the society. And moi? Bring smiles seem to be the least thing I can do. I hope I can do more. I can. I knew it.

09.00 am

I know i'm getting old, but there's always this child in me. And this little kid need an special attention. On birthday, we can see how much everyone cares about us by having million wishes via text, facebook, twitter, etc. So it's quite sadden me when there's just few of my friend wishes me on facebook. Boo. Somehow my birthdate didnt show up. But fortunately It worked out after I fixed the profile. Then within a minute, many wishes flooded my walls. And totally saved my day. Bahaha.

02.00 pm

Anyways, I went to salon just to wash and blow and get a light hair cut. But it was apparently turned to be wash and vitamin and tonic and hair-dried and a hard hair cut (means she cut my hairs way too much). Shoot.

03.00 pm

Once again, I didn’t have any expectation. But when I got home, there were my closest friends surprised me with chocolate cake and candles. <3>

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Anyways, I spent the rest of the day replying all of everyone birthday wishes. And I got overwhelmed yet feel loved. Also feel blessed. Thank you God. You gave me even more than what I wanted. You gave me family, friends, joy, and peace. I am grateful for the bless, God. I am really am grateful. Thank you.