The Right Call




Would that be an answer from God?
When you pray for your insecure feeling of might or might not getting hurt from your current partner, God keeps him away from you. Like, immediately. He somehow brightened up your mind of logic and faded out your lovingly heart. He shows you the way. The bad clues are everywhere. Would you follow those signs? I would and I'm glad I did. And now it's up for you to make the right call.




Jujur Dari Mata (edisi revisi)

Tadi..

Mataku berkedut-kedut

Berteriak minta ditutup

Dan jika benar mata itu punya kaki

Tanpa babibu pasti segera pergi


Mataku juga kering. Kehausan akan tangis yang dulunya datang sering.

Tapi hei..

Menangis jangan kau pernah anggap miris

Karena tangis dapat berakhir manis

Yang menghilangkan tebalnya tabir kabut sadis

Aku tahu.. dan aku sadar

Sebetulnya dia lelah

Lelah akan keegoisanku yang telah merongrong membabi buta

Untuk terus membuatnya terbuka

Lebar tanpa cela melayani tanpa asa

Dan sekarang...

Sebelum sang mata kehabisan kekuatannya

Sebelum ia menutup dengan paksa

Atau sebelum ia memutuskan untuk angkat 'kaki' imajinernya

Aku pun tarik tangis dari hati

Entah karena sekedar ingin memberi minum mata

Atau memang ada momok berkecamuk ingin bebas

Ah kini kurasakan lega yang tak dapat ditaksir takarnya

Otak obesitasku dengan sendirinya mengendur tenang

Lalu memerintahkan mata menutup perlahan

..yang tentunya tanpa berteriak berontak

Dan sekarang...

Mataku seakan bersinar lapar

Berlonjak-lonjak minta visual

Lagi dan lagi

Adaptation

This early year I went through was tough. This week is even harder. Yesterday I had my proposal trial done with just 1 day of preparation. Today within a couple of hours, I'll fly to Jakarta for my hospital internship. It's two months away from home. I have had lack of relaxing time just like I used to be done back then. Hope I could catch a break there. Wish me good luck. Cheers!


Touch of Evil





I have been mesmerized by these Alex Prager's video galleries of this year's biggest actors chanelling the greatest cinematic villains. If you want to see Brad Pitt as Eraserhead, Gary Oldman as the menacing dummy, or even the innocent Mia Wasikowska as the Home Wrecker, which surprisingly brilliant--I think she's the best of all but well, after Gary Oldman of course-- you can watch them all here.

They're all simply short, yet have a magic quality that blew your mind, because they're technically moving photographs. So, you might wanna check them out they're epic.

Before Reality Bites

Never been this peaceful recently. With the rain drumming on the roof and Francoise Hardy caressing my ear. And yes, here I am, munchin' on Eid's leftover cookies and end it up with a sip of cheap soda. Gratefully with no reason to worry whatsoever. Secure. No work. No assignment marathon. Just as simple as that. You know at least I still have few days before my reality bites. :-)


So how's your holy holiday people? Wow, sounds great. And Moi? Well you know. Same old, same old. No surprise. *I'm still in the hope-of-being-paid-treveler though*








Some random activities


It's a cliche, but at least for now, I really am grateful to be surrounded by the people I heart the most. Kinda relief to have this content feeling, though. Seriously. I hope I could stop the world from moving for a while.


Blahbye!

Catching up a bit

Anyway I've been missing blogging since ages, but I didn't really have enough time to post anything (read: lazed around). Well, these past two months were completely filled with uptight college schedule; exams, final assignment, early research paper proposal,etc. My brain was tense and hectic enough to blow up by a single poke. Seriously. Joking.

On top of that, there's an issue with the gadget. I don't know. I just have no frickin idea about how fragile my laptop is. You know, I've told you before that few buttons on my keyboard has broken since I dont even remember. And, it's getting worse that all the buttons fucked up so I must replace the whole board into the new one *sigh*. Quite expensive by the fact that I could have get it fixable earlier *another sigh* Oh I felt so bad.



Okay, enough with the fussy and whiny talk. It might bores you to the max.

Just so you know, I'm on two months of my break from college now. I had absolutely no holiday plan as my wallet is barely alive *sarcastic laugh*. Of course you might find me lie on the couch while staring at the screen all day long. Or I might realize there's still plenty things I could've done. I mean sort of "get a life!" activities outside tv series marathon watching and browsing and game onlining.

P.S: Ramadhan has just started and I must ensure myself to be a better prayer and also as a person.

P.S.S: I know this draft is a month late. I know. Peace out!


Mood-o-meter



Needless to say because a picture worth thousand words, anyway.

P.S : I'm sorry for being such a lazy little blogger
, people. My keyboard crashes I couldnt use enter backspace and colon and I'm using this on-screen frickin keyboard right now.

Solitude is Bliss!

Another kinda Mixed Tape for those who are currently not in the mood of messing around with Mr. relationship. Yet, wanna keep serious stuff for later. :3


(via tumblr)

Allo Darlin - If Loneliness was Art
Arcade Fire - Cold Wind
Get Set Go - Hate
Hurts - Better Than Love
Inara George - Fools in Love
Nouvelle Vague - This is Not a Love Song
Pylon - Stop It
Razorlight - Who Needs Love
Tame Impala - Solitude is Bliss
The Radio Dept. - I Don't Need Love, I've Got My Band

Well, to me, company's okay. But solitude is bliss. (at least for now!) Anyhow, you can listen this mixtape via my 8tracks account. And If you have any Internet Download Manager, you can simply download the songs :-]